hello little one.

we had a date, you, your father and i,

to meet on november 10, 2003.



i know that you wanted to be there,

and that you tried very hard,

but that you will be unable to make it.



but please know that in the short time

that we knew you,

you were loved. by many.



you made me very happy,

little one,

and that is how i will remember you.

always.



goodbye.



(i found out on thursday morning, 4/24, that i had a miscarriage the night before.



you guys, please don't feel bad. every day of this pregnancy was spent wondering if that day was the day that i would have to say goodbye. although i have been on insulin for the past 2 months, the 5 weeks of living with an uncontrolled diabetes took a toll on this little one. after a few months, after i have controlled the diabetes, and i find myself well on my way to a healthy body, robin and i will try again. )