moved furniture yesterday. moved some of my stuff to preeth's new house...gave him alot of furniture...that's what older sisters are for, right? got furniture from robin's brother chris...i guess that that's what older brothers are for..:)



mom and dad love robin...they value his opinions, his ideas, him...and now they value me because i am married; to him...knowing that i can make them so happy by getting married, feels good cause now they're finally happy...but sh*tty because i had a value before getting married, they just didn't see it. this sucks. i love that they love him, but...as usual, they value a man's opinion over mine. how do i react to this? let it be? i am tired of trying to make them see that i have a value on my own, and my opinions and ideas are of worth...and that it sucks that robin just came into the picture and they listen to him, over me...am i being horrible? yeah, maybe, but, all i have really wanted was for them to say that i am alright, you know...that i am...i don't know...worthy of a little respect? is that it?



(on a side note, i now have a new friend in thailand, hi rasee from rice bowl.



and preeth saw my journal, and he's impressed...yay!! i took the base of a blogger template, but changed many, many things...i love that i did something that my family likes...)

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wedding memories: here is a description of the weddings that i made to a friend:busy,

crazy,

fun,

chicken-head-cut-off,

veryoldministerwhoforgottocometotherehearsalandwasbarelyaudibleduringthewedding-american ceremony, anannoyingpriestwhokepttellinguswhattodothuspissingmeoffandwhocouldbarelyspeakenglish-hindu ceremony; music,

colors;

fun-didisaythatalready?;

final;

smilesmilesmileflashsmileflash-mycheekshurt;

shorthairedgirltransformedintoanindiangirlwithabraidwiththehelpoffakehair;

beautiful;

loved;

love;

peaceful;

noisy;

amazing...