hi. so i have been feeling a little strange lately. everyone is asking me if i am getting nervous about getting married soon...and i say, no...i don't have time to be nervous...just stressed about getting things done...if i am nervous it's mostly about things not going right on the 25th and 24th...but...now...lately...actually yesterday i started to realize that...yes...i am...i am getting a little nervous...do we have enough in common, can we grow together, do we have what it takes, do i know him well enough? you know, i ask him these questions, and he reassures me. HE reassures ME. i thought that the guy is the one that asks these things, and the girl reassures. i do know that i love him, and he's super, you know...i am just being silly i think...reverting back to the days when i was so scared of marriage that i chose the worst candidates for a partner. not that they were horrible, but just not very 'commitment oriented'. now i have someone who is good to me...and i get scared still...ugh!!!



okay, bottom line. i am getting married, i love him, he is good to me, so what's the problem? right? just flow with it...right? see where we are 5 years from now, 10 years from now, right...make it work. right?