on my drive to work this morning, i saw trees with a few yellow leaves, and a few brown ones as well. summer is officially over, fall/autumn is about to begin.
during the drive, i looked around me, at all the cars as they passed by me. i, of course, was in the fast lane, but with traffic being bumper to bumper, all i could do was relax and listen to the radio. i listen to NPR every morning, to hear the world news, and to listen to interesting conversation (options:really annoying djs...yuck!). the topic of today is the fact that today is september 10th. one more day and it would be the anniversary of the bombings. as the radio personality is talking about where other people were on the day of the 10th, last year, and how the next day affected them...my thoughts drifted.
i began thinking of all the horrible emotions from last year after the attacks. fear for my brothers, cousins, friends, who are male and brown skinned. my muslim friend's fear of going outside with her cute baby, and instead of the reception that she should receive (people bending down to look at him and say how cute he is!), she was afraid that they may harm her and her baby b/c they are muslim. i remember also reading the new york time's daily articles bringing the victims to life by talking about their life, etc., i remember almost crying at work every day at reading this. i remember the horrific images all over the media, of people falling down buildings, of the buildings falling down. i remember thinking that i should change the channel and not watch the images, but not being able to. i remember thinking that i have to keep watching, for i might forget what exactly happened. i don't think that it's possible to forget.
during the drive, i looked around me, at all the cars as they passed by me. i, of course, was in the fast lane, but with traffic being bumper to bumper, all i could do was relax and listen to the radio. i listen to NPR every morning, to hear the world news, and to listen to interesting conversation (options:really annoying djs...yuck!). the topic of today is the fact that today is september 10th. one more day and it would be the anniversary of the bombings. as the radio personality is talking about where other people were on the day of the 10th, last year, and how the next day affected them...my thoughts drifted.
i began thinking of all the horrible emotions from last year after the attacks. fear for my brothers, cousins, friends, who are male and brown skinned. my muslim friend's fear of going outside with her cute baby, and instead of the reception that she should receive (people bending down to look at him and say how cute he is!), she was afraid that they may harm her and her baby b/c they are muslim. i remember also reading the new york time's daily articles bringing the victims to life by talking about their life, etc., i remember almost crying at work every day at reading this. i remember the horrific images all over the media, of people falling down buildings, of the buildings falling down. i remember thinking that i should change the channel and not watch the images, but not being able to. i remember thinking that i have to keep watching, for i might forget what exactly happened. i don't think that it's possible to forget.
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