reminiscing on the old days
i miss the old days. i used to be able to spend so much time with my boys. quality time, not 'eat your food', 'get ready', 'stop fighting with your brother','you HAVE to take a bath' time.
we spent a half hour doing crafty things today, no tv, computers, video games...just sit down together, even agirl...and it was fun. it was like the relaxed old days. the days before:wake up,get ready for school, yell at them to eat their food to get ready for school, yell at them to tell them to eat their lunch today, stop playing and get ready for school or we'll be late - again, and then drive them to school, feel bad about yelling at them and say 'i love you boys' at the top of my lungs to make sure they heard me, and then i watch them walk the long walk into the building. that's it for a long long long time, and then it's time to go get them. when we get them they're happy to see me, but then their lack of napping crankiness sets in and they take it out on me. so stubborn and fight me on everything. (i am stubborn, very stubborn, so i realize it's a trait that they got from me). and then have to give them milk and snacks, and then their dad lets them watch tv for a little while, and then it's eat dinner time, and then it's either bath time, or yell at each other time, or both. then it's sleep time. i sometimes get to read books, i love this time usually, and they are sleeping. the end of the day. that's it. somewhere in there, there are hugs and kisses, and i am sorry's and i love yous along with the kicking and screaming and yelling and anger and sadness and unhappiness.
i miss the old days. the days when we could be silly and do silly things, and play and laugh and sing and dance and color and read and learn and go on 'field trips'. but...you have to go to school, you both love school, and i love what you are learning. but i miss you both alot. (they would say "but we are here mommy, how can you miss us'?)
we spent a half hour doing crafty things today, no tv, computers, video games...just sit down together, even agirl...and it was fun. it was like the relaxed old days. the days before:wake up,get ready for school, yell at them to eat their food to get ready for school, yell at them to tell them to eat their lunch today, stop playing and get ready for school or we'll be late - again, and then drive them to school, feel bad about yelling at them and say 'i love you boys' at the top of my lungs to make sure they heard me, and then i watch them walk the long walk into the building. that's it for a long long long time, and then it's time to go get them. when we get them they're happy to see me, but then their lack of napping crankiness sets in and they take it out on me. so stubborn and fight me on everything. (i am stubborn, very stubborn, so i realize it's a trait that they got from me). and then have to give them milk and snacks, and then their dad lets them watch tv for a little while, and then it's eat dinner time, and then it's either bath time, or yell at each other time, or both. then it's sleep time. i sometimes get to read books, i love this time usually, and they are sleeping. the end of the day. that's it. somewhere in there, there are hugs and kisses, and i am sorry's and i love yous along with the kicking and screaming and yelling and anger and sadness and unhappiness.
i miss the old days. the days when we could be silly and do silly things, and play and laugh and sing and dance and color and read and learn and go on 'field trips'. but...you have to go to school, you both love school, and i love what you are learning. but i miss you both alot. (they would say "but we are here mommy, how can you miss us'?)
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