monday morning...took 10 minutes to get up,get ready and out the door. we both kept hitting the snooze button until we woke up a half hour late. we were up til 1:30 last night, cleaning up the house and emptying to prepare for a new realtor and a new listing. we're starting over today and hopefully soon we'll get our house sold.

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we turned our cable off to save money, and in preparation for selling the house...we're hoping if we do this that the house will actually get sold. anyway til then no tv...ugh...what will we do to keep busy?

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yesterday, robin and i went to see mom and dad. will the day ever come when my father is actually sincerely nice to me and when he actually gets a happy tone in his voice when he says hello? all of the things that have happened in the past, along with his contant sadness makes him not look forward to seeing me...while robin, well with robin, i hear that nice, happy 'hello'. people that are more kind and caring with strangers (robin is not a stranger, but you know what i mean) vs. their own family....i don't think that i will understand that. although i am so happy that robin gets this wonderful treatment, for i don't want him to ever be with robin the way he is with me.