recap since the last post
long time. i am going to try this again. the days are quieter with the boys gone to school and just one little one to take care of at home so...i should have more time in the future.
what's happened since my last post? our house got sold, goat got married. getting to know jess alot better, oving that. moved out of mom and dad's since we finally sold our house. moved to a suburb where i rely heavily on my gps, since i don't know where anything is. but...we love...love our house, although we are renting for a while. i hated the idea of not being a homeowner, since i have been one for the past 13 years...but it is what it is, the market sucked and we lost alot of money. c'est la vie. renting isn't so bad though and it's a townhouse so it's easy-peasy, no lawn mowing or snow blowing...and there's a pool, a park, and tennis courts for the kids.
i feel horrible about leaving my parents without their grandkids but it was getting really tough there. whenever the kids would make noise and kids always make noise, my parents, being older now, would tense up and get nervous, or worried, and it was hell...so i made the kids be quiet all the time. demanding a rule of being quiet obviously made the kids crazy and they would react horribly. now they are noisy, and they are quiet, whatever they choose to be. now, i cook and clean, housewifey things, things that i didn't get to do because my mom did it all. anyone else reading this would think that i was insane not liking someone else to do all this, but it made me feel less valuable b/c i wasn't working and i also wasn't a housewife. no i don't want to just cook and clean, i want to get back to working or completing a desire to start a business, but i also want to be a part of a nuclear family, in our own little house, doing family things. now that's what we are, again, after so long. kids sleep over at their grand parents, one at a time, so they can enjoy individual time with them and it also is easier for the grandparents. everything is going great.
if only i could win the lottery though to be able to go to india after 6 years...to show my kids and robin my India. 1500 dollars a person for the ticket alone...how are we ever going to afford that without winning the lottery?
what's happened since my last post? our house got sold, goat got married. getting to know jess alot better, oving that. moved out of mom and dad's since we finally sold our house. moved to a suburb where i rely heavily on my gps, since i don't know where anything is. but...we love...love our house, although we are renting for a while. i hated the idea of not being a homeowner, since i have been one for the past 13 years...but it is what it is, the market sucked and we lost alot of money. c'est la vie. renting isn't so bad though and it's a townhouse so it's easy-peasy, no lawn mowing or snow blowing...and there's a pool, a park, and tennis courts for the kids.
i feel horrible about leaving my parents without their grandkids but it was getting really tough there. whenever the kids would make noise and kids always make noise, my parents, being older now, would tense up and get nervous, or worried, and it was hell...so i made the kids be quiet all the time. demanding a rule of being quiet obviously made the kids crazy and they would react horribly. now they are noisy, and they are quiet, whatever they choose to be. now, i cook and clean, housewifey things, things that i didn't get to do because my mom did it all. anyone else reading this would think that i was insane not liking someone else to do all this, but it made me feel less valuable b/c i wasn't working and i also wasn't a housewife. no i don't want to just cook and clean, i want to get back to working or completing a desire to start a business, but i also want to be a part of a nuclear family, in our own little house, doing family things. now that's what we are, again, after so long. kids sleep over at their grand parents, one at a time, so they can enjoy individual time with them and it also is easier for the grandparents. everything is going great.
if only i could win the lottery though to be able to go to india after 6 years...to show my kids and robin my India. 1500 dollars a person for the ticket alone...how are we ever going to afford that without winning the lottery?
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