hello. it's been a few days since i have written. sorry. will get better.
first of all, winter is approaching. it is getting colder already. time to put away summer clothes, and buy new fall/winter clothes. the kids have gotten bigger, and i have gotten a little smaller since last winter (having had just delivered!). but we have absolutely no money...so...no shopping.
the 'no money' part is getting to nubs and i. we still buy stupid things at target...not big things mind you but things like crackers and pretzels and other food that are fun vs. the staples. target is a good store, but too good. too many fun things. i guess that i do buy the kids things that i don't have to as well, like markers and paper to draw on. but...why are we working, if not to afford the little things in life. it's not like they are t.v.'s or computers! but yet we are still always broke. i guess that's what lowering my hours, buying a house and having three kids.
the boys are getting much more calm and generally just acting out a lot less. they are also acting as if they are getting older. the three kids and i went for a walk. i had agirl in the stroller and sboy and mboy on bikes. everything was going fine until they started getting tired. sboy went very fast and biked away from me and i said stop 3x's. they always listen to me...so i was pretty mad when mboy went very fast as well trying to catch up him.
when they stopped i yelled at them and lectured them and showed my 'dissapointment' face. later when all was quiet...mboy said"mommy you yelled at me even though i was just trying to catch up to s to tell him to stop". it made me realize that 1) i did not do the 'innocent til proven guilty' bit. 2) mboy actually stated a feeling/emotion. he had never done that before. 3)i need to calm down and not get so upset when they don't listen.
i want to write so much to make up for the last couple of days...but instead i will make an ardent effort to write every day from now on!!!
first of all, winter is approaching. it is getting colder already. time to put away summer clothes, and buy new fall/winter clothes. the kids have gotten bigger, and i have gotten a little smaller since last winter (having had just delivered!). but we have absolutely no money...so...no shopping.
the 'no money' part is getting to nubs and i. we still buy stupid things at target...not big things mind you but things like crackers and pretzels and other food that are fun vs. the staples. target is a good store, but too good. too many fun things. i guess that i do buy the kids things that i don't have to as well, like markers and paper to draw on. but...why are we working, if not to afford the little things in life. it's not like they are t.v.'s or computers! but yet we are still always broke. i guess that's what lowering my hours, buying a house and having three kids.
the boys are getting much more calm and generally just acting out a lot less. they are also acting as if they are getting older. the three kids and i went for a walk. i had agirl in the stroller and sboy and mboy on bikes. everything was going fine until they started getting tired. sboy went very fast and biked away from me and i said stop 3x's. they always listen to me...so i was pretty mad when mboy went very fast as well trying to catch up him.
when they stopped i yelled at them and lectured them and showed my 'dissapointment' face. later when all was quiet...mboy said"mommy you yelled at me even though i was just trying to catch up to s to tell him to stop". it made me realize that 1) i did not do the 'innocent til proven guilty' bit. 2) mboy actually stated a feeling/emotion. he had never done that before. 3)i need to calm down and not get so upset when they don't listen.
i want to write so much to make up for the last couple of days...but instead i will make an ardent effort to write every day from now on!!!
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